Last Wednesday, I was awarded 2 awards for my so called “Outstanding Achievement” in my Year 1 results.

The first award is the LexisNexis Book Prize Award, which comes with a Book Prize of RM1000 worth, as well as a certificate (I think the cert worth more than the book prize)… The second award is the Shearn Delamore Book Prize Award, which comes with a book prize of RM500, a certificate as well as an internship for 1 month with the firm.

Do I feel happiness or excitements? To a little extent, yes. I feel like my hard work and sacrifices made in my 1st year had finally paid off, and I had proven to myself that I can do it as long as I want to. Aside from proving to myself, I had also proven to my high school (in which I was a dropout, lol) that I can do better than they think I can. XD

But what I feel more is the stresses that comes along. The kiasu-ness in me (which helps me to excel btw) had become stronger and that I am scared that in Year 2 I would not be able to maintain the same standard. Some friends even started to treat me differently, looking for me only when they need help. As much as I’m happy to assist them, the feeling wasn’t a good one either.

The past weeks was a fucked up one… too many things to handle with too little time. Company Law presentation eats up much of my time, not to mention the already heavy normal workload from daily studies. To make things worst, I had dedicated much of my time to plan for my friends’ wedding. In the end, I have no time left to do what I’m supposed to do. I can hardly find time to go to gym (although I’m still able to go gym at least 3 times per week) and all my studies were largely halted. As a result, I’m hyperly stressed out.

Hopefully I’ll be able to release all the stresses in Zumba Fitness Party tomorrow ^^